First of all My babies, Emilee and Carsen just love Elmo (MelMo is what they call him)so when I saw Elmo praying, I thought this would be a great set for there page!

I now this may sound Silly to some grieving or non grieving parents, and this maybe very normal for other grieving parents. As soon as the funeral and reality set in, I was ready to get pregnant again. But even though I may have been ready, The Lord above had another plan. I take it as of today I really did need allot more healing before having another baby. It took 8mth after Matthew was born to get pregnant with Emmie. It seemed like an eternity! But the day had finally came in April where I had a positive test. I was so excited, my husband was hesitant, and kind of ignored the pregnancy for awhile, but I wasn't mad, it was something he had to work out himself, and  he knew I wasn't the one who caused this all by myself, actually my whole family was scared, and thought I didn't wait long enough. But then again they couldn't understand my heart. But I too also understood there position too, Matthew was the first infant death in our family, he was the 9th grandchild and 6th Nephew. But after awhile everyone got over there fears and started getting excited.

As for my pregnancy everything was going as planned all test and sonograms looked great, her Due Date was set for December 26th 1999, but I knew I wouldn't go that long due to having Big Babies, so 2 to 1 week early was an option, until Thanksgiving weekend I went into labor, not major labor, just enough to feel them and be very consistent on contractions, being that I still had 4 weeks to, he stopped them and sent me home, to return back to his office Monday, so off I went, to be told that I am either at my DUE DATE or I am having a LARGE BABY... The biggest baby I had was my middle Son he weighed 9lbs 8oz, Ok yeah I now this isn't too big to some mommies, but for my body frame, it was HARSH! So they decided to send me off for a high level sonogram, My due date remained the same, the weight was right on, and at that time is also when we found out the baby was a girl, my husband and I just cried our first GIRL!  So back to the Ob office, that's were they told me I had due date Fluid, and I would not last for another 2 weeks, and boy were they right.

Welcome to the world Emilee Cathlynn~ Sunday December 12th,1999~ 6:55am~ 7lbs 5oz~201/2

As any woman very impatient, she did not wait for the Dr. so daddy and the nurse had to deliver her! It was great to watch my husband do most of the work, but hey we had become pro's Emilee was our 4th child. And this is were another trial hit us, We were told all in the same breath, Oh My Gosh she is so pretty, and she was born with a cleft lip... CLEFT LIP.. never heard of it! I didn't even get to see her, they had to see how severe her pallet was damaged. So off to the nursery she went, I had no idea what was happening or what a CLEFT LIP EVEN WAS, and what did this mean? My husband tried explaining it to me along with the nurses.. BUT I wasn't hearing anything, FINALLY after 2hrs here she came. They placed her in my arms, I took one look at her and saw nothing! She was BEAUTIFUL! She was mine and so sweet! Emilee.... I could not take my eye's off her...  and she was doing so well, she didn't need a feeding tube, she was actually drinking from an original lambs nipple. Even the nurses said she was very LUCKY! I don't think it was luck, I think it was all the prayers from my family and my church family. She was born on a Sunday, so of course prayers started at service. When we finally got to go home, her feeding nurse called us, and she was real raw from the lambs nipple so she asked me what bottles I would use, if she hadn't been born with the cleft, I told the Playtex disposables, she then told me to use them, and told me how to open the nipple a little bigger so she can still suck but not alot. It was going smoothly, we had some really rocky moments but Emilee is a trooper, her surgeries to repair her lip went really well. She will continue to have surgeries again at the age of 8 for pallet and teeth.  As of today Emilee is attending preschool for her speech therapy, and were in the process to find out if she may deaf in the left ear, or to see if she needs tube.

~~THANK YOU MATTHEW FOR PASSING YOUR STRENGTH ON TO SISSY~~

AND TO THE GOOD LORD ABOVE FOR SUCH A PRECIOUS BLESSING FOR THEM ALL

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Before and after pictures of Emmie

When Emilee was 6mths old, I found out I was pregnant again... I was scared myself this time, we haven't even gotten through Emilee 2nd surgery, and here we go again! But did I even 1 minute have regrets??????? NO WAY!!!!

Welcome to the world!

Carsen Jacob~ Friday March 23rd,2001~ 7:10am 7lbs 3oz and 201/2 inches long!

Carsen also was 2 weeks early....

AHHH Carsen my red headed tempered little guy! What a blessing! The whole time I was pregnant with Carsen, I was so afraid of Emmie being jealous, WRONG! She is like a mother hen. Carsen was the only person she would even kiss. He copies everything Emmie does, it's to cute!

Hmm what more can I say about the Little Guy, he is you typical 2yr old, driving me crazy and melting my heart all at the same time. Him and Emmie fight.... and at the same time time can't do anything without each other.

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